Awakening

Wednesday night -Standing alone in the critical care unit this morning, I braced myself for the worst as one by one his doctors all told me the same thing- things were grave. Ben's prognosis was of the worst kind. Ben's chances for any kind of real recovery were nil. They use the word 'decision', as in my having to make one soon. The nurses hugged me and told me they were sorry and the staff in the unit all stood still as I passed by, with an eerie chant of 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.' well, That was this morning. By this afternoon Ben was moved upstairs to room 904. I was saying over and over 'I love you' to him, his eyes locked with mine. HE JUTTED OUT HIS CHIN, "I love you too,"he said slowly, and he got this shit-eating grin on his face and I thought I would collapse. He's even almost cracking jokes, he's got the same sense of humor- only real slow mo. He's STILL ON A FEEDING TUBE ETC. BUT HE'S so much better. More work on his heart etc the next few days so he's not ready for visitors quite yet. they will be putting a pacemaker etc. He's coming out of the woods! Again- thanks for your agnostic and otherwise prayers.

Critical Care

Ben is still in Critical Care at St. Pete's where he's been since Tuesday March 22. Today he made good progress and he's off the respirator but still has not regained consciousness. His seizures have stopped and his pneumonia is better. Soon we will be able to more accurately assess his brain damage. Your prayers and holding Ben in your heart are helping us so much. But as far as I'm concerned, the worst already happened- Ben already died so now every minute is bonus time! What a gift! Can't wait till he wakes up and starts flirting with the pretty nurses- it's too bad he's missing all this attention. Please pass this on to friends- I know I am only hitting the tip of the iceberg. Thanks to everyone who have helped, particularly Norma who knows what to do. Pleases email me since my voice mail is filled every night- thanks so much- email is an easier way for me to respond. Love, Barbara